Reality's Slave
I close my eyes,
As reality draws near,
What does it do to me?
I become bound by a firm chain.
My world vanishes,
No slave is ever truly free.
My wishes and desires are dreams,
This harsh life pains me,
As my mind deteriates.
What do you want from me?
Make me do you endeavors before you set me free.
A free slave does no other will than his own.
This world turns life into a complex paradox.
Who has the solution?
Surely not I.
I am just a slave.
Reality, Stress, and Mental Abuse own me,
But my labor is not gone to waste.
This world has no hold on me.
By my own will,
I submit.
I know not what else there is
Comforting Wisdom
Wisdom,
With its radiant beauty,
Comforting with truth,
With its great fragrance,
As a garden never - ending.
Calming yet how attractive is its array.
No other gift is more awesome than that of wisdom,
Its bounties are as infinite as its splendor long - lived inwardly.
Knowledge of the greatest minds,
Easily becomes nothing,
For even knowledge without wisdom is futile,
With time, a dumb man may become learned,
With time, an ignorant man may become enlightened,
But without wisdom,
Time is only moments wasted.
But without openness of mind and willingness of heart,
Wisdom has no soil to base its roots,
When th
Disappearing Melody
This song I'm searching for,
Tell me why it seems so far away.
Yet in my sleep it takes over me.
It's sweet melody,
Why won't it let me rest?
In my days I search for it.
In my empty nights I give my voice to it.
Where are you?
All the words, they come and leave
Before I have time enough to sing it twice.
It's almost possessing.
Without grasping too tightly to eternity.
What song is this that with skill taunts me?
Sing to me,
Whoever I lend my voice to.
Every night a new song comes and leaves,
Leaving me no time to sing one line twice.
I see you
When did I become this child which I am?
I used to be so different
I used to be the mystery.
Now they see enough to satisfy.
I changed for disloyal companions.
For best friends to whom I am as good as forgotten.
I did nothing short of everything to make you smile.
I did it all to have my company be you.
And now, my last hello fro you was far too long ago.
Buy you don't miss me.
You abuse me without knowing.
But I've settled into this person.
And when I wonder how I got here,
I see you.
My Cemetery Stare
Rain pours as I stare,
Dazed looking out the window of my brother's car,
I see the water falling hard,
Like the tears I shed,
As we drive part the cemetery,
The rain quenching the blocks of cold stone,
Each stone a memorial to a member of the deceased,
Each stone a day where all in relation to the past were in anguish,
So many tears much have quenched the deep hollowed ground,
The rain only a sip compared to the pain of tears,
I become numb,
All of me,
I remember all the times I contemplated suicide,
I ponder deep into my memories,
I remember the beautiful fountain of my dark red blood,
My wrist stings,
Beau
Heard
This is my generation,
Hear us!
Listen to the children of our nations.
Reach out and let us speak,
This world is at its worst.
Country against country,
Brother against brother,
There is so much to bring me down,
There is so much to be overlooked,
This nation attacks another,
That nation rebels,
Certain nations may be a threat,
The largest threat is in the home,
Families cannot hold,
Divorce, children without parents, youth without a home,
So many there are inside our own,
For if the world would be a garden,
It would be a garden of weeds and locusts,
Corruption and ignorance spread from parents to their children,
Litt
Through
Pen to paper,
The words fill the page,
My mind goes blank,
As my memory fades,
I whisper out of my wretched heart.
Smile at the coldness,
Accept the heat.
Warm yourself by my fiery blaze.
That of this inferno of unrest,
It is hotter than any word spoken,
It burns longer than even the truest,
The most falcated "love,"
It is taller and stronger than a giant's spine,
How quickly we forget however,
The taller they stand,
The harder they fall,
Come to me children,
All ages join in the story,
Watch me grow,
See me change,
Don't misunderstand,
There was never a regression,
I ponder upon my multiple stages,
I never bel
Closed eyes and a breath
I close my eyes and breathe.
All is silent so you can hear.
Listen to my steady heart beat,
You think you know me well,
But you fool yourself with your own lies.
This world is twisted with deceit.
Who can anyone trust?
Only God Almighty.
No human could ever compare.
Bring Him your troubles.
We can conquer the greatest conqueror through Christ,
The Lord gives us no more than we can bare.
And with Him nothing is too great.
Tomorrow is a different day,
Don't stress that which is yet to come.
Today's struggle is difficult enough.
Deal with the burden placed before you,
Trust in God the Almighty Omnipote
I feel so high n this cant be good,
No drugs in my system,
No alibi, no lies.
I'm totally sober yet drunk off life.
I don't know what to call this place I'm in,
It's not all the comforts of home, but it is where I live.
I'm typing away to a ghost of a hope,
Despite the disbelief in the being, in it I confide.
The ghost of this dream that once seemed so clear.
Before the empty pages and the new outlooks on life.
It was right in front of me,
But I still don't quite know how to get there,
I'm here,
But I still don't quite know what this place is called.
The building that sooths my eyes after long car rides with
Where's Your Smile
Am I still a mystery?
Is this face still my masquerade?
I'm growning accustomed to the details.
I look so different without a smile.
Without it my eyes don't shine.
My face isn't bright and my laugh isn't real.
Could I look so different?
I never noticed.
So why did a stranger?
Current Residence: My Happy Place Favourite genre of music: Jazz, R&B, Blues Favourite photographer: Ashlee Favourite style of art: i like surrealism n sculpture alot :-) but thas not really digital:-( Operating System: of wut? MP3 player of choice: tha one i wish i had :-( Shell of choice: tha ones i put on tha madian's boob Wallpaper of choice: i like paint better Skin of choice: mine? Favourite cartoon character: Jasmine from Aladin Personal Quote: Catcall!!! OW OW!
Favourite Visual Artist
Every artist with a soul
Favourite Movies
Aladin
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
The Great Jazz Artists of Back In The Day
Favourite Writers
John Keats
Favourite Games
Volleyball
Favourite Gaming Platform
sega?
Tools of the Trade
pencil n paper/camera/piano/sax/voice/occassional volleyball/soccer ball
hey everyone,
busy as always. its been so long since i've been here. umm few new random pics. my pops got his camera fixed so im pretty excited bout that. bout time i got back in tha swing of this jazz. anyway, hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving.
love always,
jeninha
damn, where to begin? umm slept at my girl's thurs to friday. friday i was suposed to go dress shopping for my boyfriend's homecoming. so i got to tha mall n my dad calls me up n we start firghtin bout church. which believe me, fightin wit me about church makes me wana go a hell of a lot more. but anyway so he says i can't go to homecoming. then i got pissed so i decided to be a bitch back so i got me n my girl pedicures lol then my boyfriend came up n made me really happy. i chilled with him all night. today we kidnaped my girl ashlee for her birthday n suprised her wit some art tours n a tour of the city. it was all great till my boyfri
damn, where to begin? umm slept at my girl's thurs to friday. friday i was suposed to go dress shopping for my boyfriend's homecoming. so i got to tha mall n my dad calls me up n we start firghtin bout church. which believe me, fightin wit me about church makes me wana go a hell of a lot more. but anyway so he says i can't go to homecoming. then i got pissed so i decided to be a bitch back so i got me n my girl pedicures lol then my boyfriend came up n made me really happy. i chilled with him all night. today we kidnaped my girl ashlee for her birthday n suprised her wit some art tours n a tour of the city. it was all great till my boyfriend called me n was like i crashed on tha way home last night. i felt soooooo guilty. cuz it was comin back from my house. he hydroplaned n crashed into the divider. i feel so horrible. then we stayed out a lil more wit my ashlee n emma. i got timbs for 4bucks. sweet deal right? thas wut i thought.